Dream 113

I was at church and I left n the middle and went to the wonder bread outlet.  Outside was Suga S.G.  We caught up for awhile.

Dream 112

I saw A.O. at Hy-Vee.  He seemed to have gotten bigger and was in bad health.

Dream 111

I dreamt that I was getting sent to Iraq for the United States.  I told R.L. from work that I was gonna go AWOL.

Dream 110

[1] I capture two snakes and a slug and put them in a case/acquarium similiar to the one J.H. has from the DRUGSLUG(real life)  I go out of the room and come back and one of the snakes is outside the case now.  It is staying in the same area and not moving.  I move the case in my dresser/top drawer.  I leave the house and walk down South Ave, but I don't remember walking west.  I am just walking east back home.  I start running and get back home quickly.  The snakes are still there.

[2] I am at the mall in St. Joseph.  I buy a CD.  After this I see M.C.'s friend/bandmate N.?.  He has shorter hair though.  I follow him through the mall.  I tell him about the CD I got, then I realize I forgot it.  N.?.  is delivering pizza in the mall.

[3] The answer to B.F.'s question of who was in "The Prairie Home Companion" (similar to Laura Dern) was revealed to me to be Laura Linney (in reality it ended up being Virginia Madsen).

Dream 109

[1] I am at Casey's with M.C..  I decided to buy a pack of smokes after he does.  Instead of a $20 bill, J.B., who M.C. didn't want to buy smokes from, gives me two $100 bills.  I wait for M.C. in my car but he never comes.  I go around back and he is there with D.D. and some.  D.D. says to keep the money.  I wanna get the game Viva Pinata.

P.J. is gonna get married soon.  I somehow miss the wedding tho and J.B. from work call me, wanting me to buy him alcohol until he remembers he can do it himself.

[2]I see T.S. and J.W. and we do meth together.  I apologize to T.S. and then after I think I do some lines they disappear.  I still got the meth tho and go back to town and keep it all to myself.

Dream 108

Not sure what order this all happened in:

[1] My mom and me are talking and I tell her I am and always will be a pothead.  She has a bad reaction to the news.

[2] My dad tells me Jack White is dead.  I go on Wikipedia and see that he died in Feb 2006.

Dream 107

Strong feelings I cannot explain or remember when I woke up at D.H.'s

Dream 106

I see T.S. and apologize to him for how things turned out, but told him it had to be this way.

Dream 105

Mice, crawling out of everywhere

Dream 104

Some sort of family thing is gonna be going on tomorrow.  My dad is throwing it, but tonight he is in bed.  I lay in my own bed jacking myself off so my mom and sister can see me when they walk by.  My sister gives me a dirty look but mom and me open mouth kiss as soon as she leaves.  We fuck.

Dream 103

Not sure what led up to it, but co-worker and D.B.'s from J.B. was i my dream.

Dream 102

It was a hot day in realy that carried over to my dream.  It then snowed overnight.

Dream 101

T.J. from work was walking across some tall place outside on the street, but this was still at work.  I looked up and knew when she was picking up a long/heavy thing.  She was gonna fall. And she did.

Dream 100

Going to Tool inside some observation Hall in KC.  It was more like downtown St. Joseph though.  I had this strange feeling of being lost and a strange sense of pressure.  J.M. and D.H. are supposed to show up later, but I am really early.  It is on 13th street but the confusion and pressure keep me from getting there.  There ends up being 13th street somewhere else, a road above the other roads.  Eventually we make it to a alley road between 2 banks, one being nvb and the hall is beside them.  None of us had tickets though.  I end up buying them out of the atm but it never gives me the ticket because D.H. planned on going and Tool doesn't want him to see them play live because Maynard told me he is a liar and tourist who doesn't deserve it.

I wake up terrified.
(note from reality: this was right around the time D.H. was a huge dickhead to me and chewed me out on the phone because I wouldn't go over to his house and smoke him up, even though I offered for him to come over to D.D.'s house to hang out with us and an old high school friend of ours).

Dream 99

[1] I am at J.H. and M.H.'s and all their kid's L.H. are there.  I smoke with the older two L.H.'s.  It is the first time me and L.W. have smoked together.  I end up washing dishes for J.H. and end up going home then later on.

[2] Pacey from Dawson's Creek was at the old Middle School doing motivational speaking when I happened to stop by with my family.  He eventually got me wound up and talking.  I felt like I was Dawson.  We all three left when I got home.  I started studying and found out it wasn't really Joshua Jackson, but T.C. posing as him.  Jack was there with A.W as well.

[3] D.H. and D.D. say Tiffany is sexually frustrated.  Her and A.W. never had sex.  I make plans to fuck her at B.N.'s wedding.

[4]  I am watching wrestling but I am actually there.  Hulk Hogan says he is gonna give Flair a title shot.  I leave and go upstairs.  I try to seduce my mom but she flips out.  I say I am sexually frustrated and she says I should be because she has a migrane.

Dream 98

I try to jack off to gay porn before I go to work, but D.H. keeps coming around.  I go to take a shower then get dressed.  T.K. starts cleaning something after I get out and he ends up getting white suds from a hose he is clean with all over me and I break down in tears because I am never gonna make it to work on time.  I change and walk and make it there in a half hour.  S.S. from high school and some others walk with me.   I see the new assistant manager in produce R.?. and J.D. stacking bananas off.  e says it's ok I am late.  I go inside.

Dream 97

[1] I am getting ready to go to my cousin B.N.'s wedding.  Something to do with his brother C.N. happens and I show up to the actual wedding late.  Not sure what happens here but it leads me to me and mom in a bathroom in a sexual situation.

[2] I move to salad bar at work.  We work in a trailer and M.G. is there, so is C.H.

Dream 96

I am at work and I walk by my cousin B.D. and her husband D.D. talking.  For some reason it seems like D.D. was married to B.D.'s sister now and not her anymore. He said her mom was not doing too well.

L.W.'s kids B.W. and C.W. are at my house and y dad and sister are going to visit her.  I am back at my old house and am in the process of moving out.  Mom is going to help me clean while dad is gone.  I discover a wall is fucked up and it falls over.  A.W. stops by and we talk about Aliester Crowley.  He says he loves him and this really surprises me.

I have no idea why B.W. and C.W. are at the house though.  Dad forgot his plane tickets.  I decide I want to go to the parade with my family and start running there.  I jump on top of a car and catch a ride.  at the intersection by where Washing Middle School was I jump off and run into grade school classmate R.S.  Nothing was retained from what happened with him but happiness.

I see L.H. and some of his family and my family.  The parade is starting up in the street.

Dream 95

I was back at the Thompson/Charles house and L.S. was still alive.  He looked scruffier and meanier.  He told me he would finally fix everything in the house that needed fixed.

Dream 94

Me and M.C. were on a train.  I pay a lot of money to ride on it.

I am at work.  I get hold of mom to fix my check because I would be overdrawn if I didn't.  She says I am.

There is some drunk lady there who rubs my cock.  I like it even though I ain't attracted to her.

When I walk back up to Hy-Vee, I see Bill Murray.  At first I don't bel;ieve it is him, but he knows all kinds of  his movie lines.  S.G. invites him over to smoke.  She tosses me a bag upon setting there, Bill Murray disappears.  It turns out he was S.G.'s uncle and the joke was on me.

Dream 93

Some kind of concert went on.  Two different cars of people went and D.H. and H.G. in mine.  After the show I left without them.  I tried calling D.D., J.B. and T.H., but none of them picked up.  I turned around and came acrossed D.H.  I had to get back in the parking lot and it cost $10.

I am at my mom's family reunion.  I don't remember much until I see my friend D.D. there, and it turns to be D.H. with bandages on his forehead.  A.H. from the deli shows up and we lay together on the couch, and I kiss her and it is amazing.  Come to find out, however, it has her hand I kissed, her thing and index finger in the shape of a mouth.  Show lays her head on my shoulder.  My mom walks by.  I accidently turn the power in the bathroom off twice on uncle D.C.  My mom smoked cigs.  J.M. some how gave me a ride home, and there were lots of tuning tracks.

Dream 92

Something to do with M.G. from the salad bar at work, and how her last name is spelt.

Something to do with T.S., but no details remembered.

Dream 91

I show J.S. my movie collection.  There isn't as many as I used to have.

My aunt M.H. has died.  No specifics other than that remembered.

Dream 90

I am in either Jefferson City or Columbia.  I don't remember why exactly, but something tells me it has to do with school, maybe St. Gregory's.  There is some type of attack where a building is blown up and people are killed.  My dad, A.W.'s parents T.W. and C.W., the pissing asshole M.H. and others are dead.

G.P. and me are now trying to get somewhere but there are trains everywhere.  There aren't any no crossing signs as well and the trains go very fast.

Finally, I think it is C.W. that is with me. and he says we should get a cab after grab almost gets us hit.

Next thing I know, I am back at home.  I see my sister and hug her and I remember mom being there too, but I don't remember seeing her.  J.N. says dad isn't dead yet, but they won't be able to keep him alive more than a week.  He said to them he blames himself for what happened.

Next thing I know, I am with A.W. when B.S. walks in.  B.S. doesn't see A.W. and asks if everything heard about his family.  He sees A.W. and starts talking to him.

Dream 89

Assistant Manager from work S.M. yelled at me about what a shitty job I've been doing lately.

Dream 88

I had a sexual encounter with my mother and came so fast.

Dream 87

Lots of vivid dream I completely forget upon waking up.

Dream 86

[1] I was back at Maryville High School to pick something up.  I walk upstairs and there is a black teacher with glasses who's room I go inside.  He says he can not help me and then I leave the room.  I don't remember what I wanted help with.  I go downstairs and two hot twins come inside.  I follow them.

I am at a party all of a sudden.  There are lots of people there.  This one girl takes me into the back room where people are smoking weed.  The cop's son P.S. is there though.  We never smoke and I have no idea what happens.  Someone just breaks the weed up.

[2] I am somewhere that T.S. is at.  I tell him that he is a piece of shit and I do not want to talk to him anymore.  Later on at some point I run into him again.

Dream 85

Me, D.H., D.D. and T.S. are going to J.B.'s.  We get pulled over and the cop is being a total dickhead.  He says he wants to search my car and I got the weed in it.  I hide it, get out and I lock back at the door.  He says he wants to search it and and begins to get mad.  I tell him no and then we all run off.  Eventually the police leave and I meet up with D.D. who is laying low in a church shelter sorta thing.  We see the cops are gone and I go to D.H.'s and stash the weed.

We finally go to J.B.'s next.  On the way we meet some cute young girls who pile into the car.  I know one, somehow.  They go to J.B.'s with us.  Not sure what else happened.

Dream 84

I got wasted in reality the night before and I remembered this in my dream.  J.H. smoked me up to cure my hang over.

Dream 83

I was at some sort of class reunion thing.  I was with my childhood crush J.S. at some point and she kissed me.  My high school friends A.O. and J.N. were also there.  In the end I just ended up talking to grade school friend B.S.

Dream 82

I am in a field and I'm there with my friends.  The first ones I remember being there are P.J. and J.B.  It is J.B.'s land we are on.  I told P.J. I never washed my hair and he thought I should cut it short since I didn't like washing it.  I thought this was strange since he was hte one who told me not to wash it years ago in the first place.  This land J.B. says goes as far as we can see.  There are a few houses and on a road his parents own it all.  All of a sudden K.J. drives up and he looks really clean cut for a change.  He says he doesn't like being a cop.  I remember the dream the night where we di meth together, or at least when he had shot it up.

All of a sudden the dream changes.  I am on the set of Fire Walk With Me.  There are lots of things I don't remember at this point.  It was scary though, and David Lynch wasn't the director anymore.  There was an old lady who said to me: "When you kill someone, you have to deal with your face hurting"

Dream 81

The girl who used to be in the salad bar, D.K., is over at my house and we are making out.  My mom comes up to the window and sees us kissing.  D.K. is naked.  Mom looks away and forgets it happened.  It all happened at my old house at Village O Drive.

Dream 80

(note: written 7/27)

I am on vacation in Kansas City with the dude R.H.  We end up driving back and forth across the city and I begin to get used to driving there.  Lots of stuff happening that the memories of are hazy.  Eventually, T.S. and K.J. arrive with meth.  K.J. tells me to shoot it up and I'll get more "bang for my buck"

Dream 79

I was around M.C.'s old house.  Hy-Vee was hiring/training new people.  A Mila Jovavich looking lady was training us.  Think Zoolander.  J.B., the now-dead clique member from grade school was there as well.  I got out of M.C.'s house on Village O Drive, where she was training us at.  Moving was hard to do.  I met up with the managers J.D. and S.M. and told them about Wal-Mart having $0.50 plums.  J.D. laughed with desperation.  We walked back to Village O with some Asians.  One ran through the ditch and we all figured he was ok cocaine.

Dream 77

Something that had to do with me talking to a girl named Rebecca over myspace at a party.  Someone like Trent Reznor that looks like Z.F. walks into his room

Dream 76

[1] I am walking into the kitchen here t home and J.N. is looking through the door.  I go outside and her and M.L. are smoking together.  K.B. comes inside and has a joint too.  It is burning all wrong though, so I inform them.  I say I will re-roll it, but something happens and I never return.

[2] I am at Wal-Mart when something happens with a king-sized Reese's Peanut Butter cup.

Dream 75

I was working in produce at Hy-Vee and for some reason, work was mixed in with a basketball team.  Michael Jorgan was on the team but never in the dream.  It was just like high school and I wasn't on the team.  I just set up the aisle before the game.  Some younger girl I'd talked to online was in the crowd, and was really real at the pep rally.

Dream 74

I am at Thompson/Charles house with M.D. and some other girls.  I start freaking out when I realize I don't live there anymore.  My dad shows up and we all leave.  I tell M.D. that I am gunna meet her at Movie Magic.  My dad, me and my sister go back to the house, but there is a garage for some reason.  Me and J.N. go pick up poker chips out there.  I am super freaking out when all of a sudden S.S. shows up and freaks out when she sees me.  She says I'm not authorized to be there.  She already told B.W.'s brother S.W., the cop, about me and he was out to get me.  My mom seemed like she was there too throughout this.

Dream 73

I am outside D.H.'s house and something happens, something major and I am suddenly down at J.B.'s mancave. They all know about me and a girl.  They say some name of a girl I can't remember now, and she is there, I think.  I start telling them how lonely I am and how I want companionship.

Dream 72

Cum is being shot everywhere.  The gm manager from work S.H. gets a huge load on the face.

Dream 71

Went by Thompson/Charles house and J.S. was there.  He was cool and invited me in to drink beer.  When I was there I saw that the house was being eaten away in one corner slowly.

Dream 70

I was going to some kind of special mass with my parents.  I was drinking before I went.  I walked up from what seemed like the Thompson/Charles house.  Once I got there I was all by myself, my parents weren't there.  Some of the S family, my mom's cousin's were there beside me, but they quickly got up and moved.

I went to some sort of after-party and met a girl the same archetype as the deli girl from work A.H.  We fell asleep together.  There were lots of other people partying when we got up.  My DVD's were there and lots got stolen and I thought A.L.'s old bf S.C. had stolen them.  Someone said that he is my sister's boyfriend J.S.'s best friend and wouldn't do that.  I said he would because I know I would.  I got A.H. to smoke with me and my mom's coworker K.L.'s boyfriend B.L. showed up drunk as piss.  He was an asshole and took a hit of the joint without asking.  All of a sudden my high school friends E.D. and N.T. showed up.  N.T. started throwing shit and I ran to the porch to talk to E.D.  He didn't know we were having a class reunion.

Dream 69

I am at a party.  There are lots of people there.  There is one girl there specifically who I fall for immediately.  D.H. is also there.  As is J.H's old roommate Ando.  Me and the girl make-out for awhile then exchange numbers.  Then the cops come and bust the party.  One is out of uniform and comes up to me as I am walking away and starts to talk about weed to me and seems to just want to scare me into letting him search me.

I leave the party and come back.  There are less people there now.  Ando asks for my phone top call someone. He says all msgs are fill and then the girl from before sees me and we kiss again.  All of a sudden here comes someone that looks like K.T. from high school and she says she is her sister K.T..  I remember talking to her years ago online.  The girl asks me how I am gonna be with her when all these people already know me.

Dream 68

I was at my old Thompson/Charles house.  The snotnosed punk from work, N.S. came up and started talking to me.  It seemed like he was dating K.H. still, but in the dream she was my ex-landlady S.S.'s granddaughter, not E.M.'s.  She told me I left the house looking like shit but he still thought I was cool.  All of a sudden some 15 year old started to walk down the street.  They come up to use me.  All of them wanted sex and one climbed onto me and stuck her finger up my asshole.  It hurt but I couldn't stop her.

Dream 67

T.S. confronted me about what I had said to R.C. in a dream.

This seemed more like a vision.

Dream 66

Strange days and strange dreams.  I don't remember it anymore, just that it was very vivid before I lost them.

Dream 65

[1] I am somewhere outside Maryville, in the Tarkio/Fairfax/Craig area.  I meet up with my sisters high school friend E.E. at a party.  I don't remember what happens exactly, but it is something sexual.

[2] I am talking to M.D. and he talks of the new X-Men movie, X-Men 3.  I thought he was speaking of X-Men 4, but I realized I dreamt this movie, within the dream.

Dream 64

I am walking or driving home and I come across my old house.  I go up to it out of habit and they have put a pile of straw over a hole in the doorway.  I hurry up and leave before my bitch of an ex-landlady S.S. shows up and catches me.

Dream 63

[wrote: 6/16/06]
I am at some sort of presidential dinner and speech.  President Bush makes eye contact with me and makes an acknowledgement of some sort.

Dream 62

Myfamily is having some sort of christmas gathering.  I roll a joint after I wake up anyway, and then drive around the college and I smoke it.  I also had some magic mushrooms I'd left out at home.  I see my cousin C.N., G.P. and their whole crowd out at the college talking.  I give G.P. the joint and I get on a bike and head home.  The snot-nosed-punk from work, N.S. follows me the whole time.  I remember reading his last name on his back, like a jersey.  When I get home, I remember about the magic mushrooms and I toss them and a large bag of stems and seeds into hiding.  D.D. shows up and he is the world champion of pro wrestling, with the belt and everything.  The people who run Molly's, A.H. and M.H. are there now.  We talk and M.H. asks me who all the ladies are.

I go back to my family.

Dream 61

I don'r remember the start of this dream.  I just remember I was back at Village O Drive and a childhood crush, J.S. was there.  I can't remember anything going on, just that J.S. was there and that she said the words "I Love You, Mike"

Dream 60

I am out and about on country roads with J.B., T.S., and J.M..  We each have a poster.  I don't remember completely what T.S. had.  J.B. had NIN and I gave one I don't remember to J.M..

I am late for work.

Dream 59

I worked from 6-2 then left for awhile and went to the country club.  I do not remember what I did there, but I remember leaving to walk back to work, and my numb-skull boss D.A. went by and told me they needed me there.  Do not remember the trip but once I got there, I got on a computer.  C.H. came in and gave me another computer.  I was looking at left wing conspiracy sites.  I closed them before anyone could see though.  My cool boss J.D. was still there when I left, messing with the bananas.

Dream 58

[1] I dreamt that I saw G.B. behind the service meat counter at the old Hy-Vee, making a sandwich.  He had a dragon, and he told me how big it'd get when it grew up.

[2] I dreamt I sat next to C.S. and we talked for a minute.  She was sweet.  She had to mow the lawn though.

Dream 57

Hazy memories and recollections.  I just remember me, A.S. and C.B. in an old build, of what type I am uncertain.  I remember there was someone, and he either caused us harm or had wished to cause us harm.  We kept trying to get away but I somehow felt whatever it was to always be gaining on us.  In the end though, we either got away or it was harmless in the end.  I remember it being harmless.

Dream 57

Hazy memories and recollections.  I just remember me, A.S. and C.B. in an old build, of what type I am uncertain.  I remember there was someone, and he either caused us harm or had wished to cause us harm.  We kept trying to get away but I somehow felt whatever it was to always be gaining on us.  In the end though, we either got away or it was harmless in the end.  I remember it being harmless.

Dream 56

I had a vision of A.H. from the deli at work.  I thought her to figure into the grand scheme of all things.  I had the urge to go into Hy-Vee to shop but I didn't and I have a feeling that time was when I found out the next day.  When she was in Hy-Vee with another guy that she was in there Sunday also, maybe at the same time I was.  She was also just in the Hy-Vee because she had an ffa shirt on which she told me it was convincing.  She was ever in Hy-Vee, but coincidence is not real, only the illusion of coincidence is real because nothing coincides with anything because there is only nothingness and isolation, or is there a greater connection?

Dream 55

Last night I dreamt that I woke up in my old house on the corner of Charles and Thompson streets.  It felt like I woke up there after a night of partying.  I started freaking out because Shirley was outside mowing.  I remember her being pissed I stayed there after I turned in the key.  I left after trying to apologize.

Dream 54

G.P. had a bunch of meth and we did it.

Dream 53

I had two cars and one was parked on the other side of town.  I was out with C.W. and M.C. and some other and I put my only copy of 10,000 Days by tool in.  I gave M.C. my copy after he said he didn't have one.  I realized when I got home though, I didn't have one anymore because I gave him mine.

Dream 52

I get an X-Box 360 and I purchase and lay Oblivion on it.

Dream 51

I was on Village O Drive for some reason at my old house.  My whole family was there.  A lot I can't recall now happened here having to do with Ashwood Circle.  I end up running into K.M. on 16th street by con Road.  We end up having some sort of sexual relation and I cum before we even have sex.  I have a wet dream.

Dream 50

Not sure how dream started, but first thing I remember is me and H.G. walking home from a party together.  She is a couple blocks ahead of me.  I think I catch up to her, but I am not sure if I ever will.  I eventually make it to my house and everyone is sleeping there.  My cousin C.N. and a few others are there though to check out this online game that I just got.  I tell them I need to go to bed.  I end up going back out again though.  There are people everywhere.  I go to where Lucky's was and there is a Mexican restaurant that opened there.  People were everywhere in it.  I see that girl friend high school K.C. and her mom is there too.  I start wondering around ore and end up around the old movie theatre.  There I run into D.H., as well as J.S. from work.  D.H. has a pipe and nugs for me to hit even though the cops are down the street.  After this I see C.W. and he offers me a ride out of this situation with C.C.  C.C. has to push another car into his to get it going.  We end up outside of town where I wake up.

Dream 49

My cousin L.H. was back in town and me, him and A.L. from frozen dept at work were going to break into what seemed like the new Hy-Vee together.  L.H. used a tool to open the window, but when he went to the car, the glass kept shutting.  We took this as a sign and L.H. left, and me and A.L. went to St. Joseph.  When I got there, I remember being at A.S. and C.B.'s, but it was my parents house to, and something was missing off the top of the stand where the television is.

Dream 48

I kept writing down things that were making B.A. and E.E. mad.

Dream 47

I was at work and I wasn't sure if I had enough money for break.  I took the [UNREADABLE] out of my pocket and left a snickers there.  I went to the atm and it said I had $25.80 left.  I took the candybar and bought it and the milk.

Dream 46

Me and T.S. were making some ice while J.W. was cooking some annie.  The ice didn't end up making much and I went to sit it in a cooler for awhile, but I was thinking of putting it in the shower.  I got it kinda wet but J.W. said that was ok.

All of a sudden, I don't remember James being there.  K.K. suddenly is though, and he robs us.  He has his gun on T.S. and might have shot him.  He points the gun at me and sees it is me.  I remembered I thought he was in prison dying.  B.J. was there, at least in spirit.

Dream 45

I remember driving east on west 9th street and I saw J.G., the super-skinny but cute blonde girl from work.  She saw me though, and gave me a sour look.

Dream 44

(note: between this entry and the last, I noted to myself on 3/17 that I was taking a lot of meth at this time, probably the time I took so much that I started having chest pains.  no dreams were remembered during this point of time).

I was in the Hy-Vee kitchen and eating with C.H.  A girl named Kayla and her husband were sitting next to us, talking.

Dream 43

I felt like I was over at D.H.'s house, and when I woke up, H.G. was laying next to me.

Dream 42

I was at a meeting with all the produce people and J.D. wrote me up because I lost a folder with important info in it.

Dream 41

[1] I was in the city with G.P.  We were riding bikes around some big city.  We came acrossed some gangster-types and they robbed us of our money, but did it nicely, as nice as they could at least.  No one got hurt.  I suddenly realized I was late for work.

[2] I was over at G.P.'s and he lived in the hotel/apts (note: area where A.W. and R.L. used to live and my sister lived at the time of the dream in reality.  I thought of the first two in my dream, but no the last one).  My landlord B.S. sees me and starts to yell at me like a crazy for looking at other apartments.  S.D. showed up, and she asked if she could use the bathroom.  My boss, S.D.'s husband, J.D., showed up and he said he got yelled at too, and everyone was talking about what a dick my landlord is.  I asked J.D. if I had to work at 12 ad he said yes.  It was twelve hours away.  There were a bunch of high school girls there too.

Dream 40

I am on 16th Street with someone, don't remember who.  We stop by J.T.'s house and I think of M.?. from the salad bar, and she is suddenly part of my family.  I sit there quielty and his whole family is there.  His dad says something about Hy-Vee, and I get $25 from someone for weed, I think.  Later I am at my parents and outside Suga S.G. drives by, and I ask him if he wants to get stoned and he says he don't smoke anymore.

Dream 39

My father found out I was doing meth and kicked me out of his house.  He yelled and yelled and screamed at me.

Dream 38

Weird stuff involving high school and B.F.  No specifics remembers.

(note: wrote on 2-14)

Dream 37

[1] Me and M.C. are driving around much like the first night we were in Springfield waiting for L.H.  It is really hard to explain the scenery, but it was like a big city industrio-commercial edge of a city.  We ended up taking an exit to get to this strange part of town.  We were originally in the metro north area of Kansas City.  We stopped by a theatre and I think we saw a movie.  After the movie we are completely lost.  We keep driving around and I see his cigarettes and ask for one.  He says just one and I see he has a bunch of ashey cigs in his bag.

[2] J.B. was at my house looking at termite damage.  There was a huge hole forming in the side of my house.  We couldn't stop it.

Dream 36

I was driving around with K.?., J.R.'s girlfriend.  We ended up on this thing that took us up and down vertically.

Dream 35

[1] I am walking out to the coean with a girl, who is actually Kelly Ripa from the show, or something of that nature.  I also have a child that is mine with me.  We are walking with the current, but the current is going further out into the ocean instead of toward the shore.  I am taking these two out to scare them.  I do not intend on killing them, but the water starts freezing us we turn around.  We try to head back to the shore, but my consciousness switches to one of the girls and I am trying to go tonight to the shore, but the current has gotten to be too much.  I have to turn around and follow the other two, presumably to our own inevitable deaths.

[2]  I am somewhere I can't remember well.  I can't remember what was happening before, but G.F. from work said he would give me a ride home.  I think J.D. had something to do with it.  I remember after G.F. telling me that I could get a ride home with him, he would have Tool and a Perfect Circle.  I don't remember his face.

Dream 34

Weird dream about doing meth with Bill O'Reilly.

Dream 33

I was somewhere and I remember D.H. and S.G. walking together, and it confused me.

Dream 32

My old grade-school classmate K.S. was outside my house, and he looked at the cracks in my wall and said they were bad and the problem was inside the ground.

Dream 31

Me and my dear old friend J.R. were out at the college and we were going up and down the elevators in the dorms (note: we had done this repeated one day as kids in junior high).  They were making me kinda sick.  I ended up at D.H.'s and he had some crystal meth.  I never get in on any though.  I was talking to A.M. and we decided to go to my house and fuck.  I told her my address (note: I actually gave her the correct address in the dream) and we said we'd meet there.  I had to ride J.N.'s bike with bad breaks.  I turned one street before Davis on 7th street and couldn't make it up the hill.  On Davis I could though.  When I got there things changed, it was like The Soprano's but I was a mixture of Tony and my lazy-ass boss G.C.  I killed A.M. and it was really S.D.  A.S. was there, dressed in Hy-Vee uniform.  Carmilla was pissed.

Dream 30

Very vaguely remember my dream.  No words can describe what it is that I remember.

Dream 29

[1] I needed to give something to T.S.  I drove to Hopkins and stopped by his house (note: never been to his house in reality).  Two people said that T.S. had already gotten what he needed and to leave.  I left and was confused.

[2] I showed my sister how to play Morrowind, and she seemed to like it.  I was really horny, so I went downstairs in the old Village O House. I started jacking off, but would piss instead of cum.  My dad came down and was pissed because I wasn't ready for work.  I kept jacking off and pissing everywhere after he left.  My dick wasn't even hard.  The butch-dike manager C.L. walked out next and saw me.  She had a disgusted look on her face.

I decided to go to work.  When I got there I found out my coworker J.H. was there too.  He was working 1-8. My boss, J.D. called me and I had to do a delivery to 17th Street.  I went home first and an hour later I remembered I had to go to do the deliver, so I started freaking out.  I went to her house and gave her the piece of paper.  There was an old ripe banana involved somehow too.  I went back to work and everything was fine: no one even noticed.  When I got home an hour later, Julie was still way into Morrowind.

[3] A cop asked me if I knew my dear friend P.J.  I said yes.  He had just gotten a dwi.  Next thing I know, P.J. is back in town and I am talking to him.  He said he wasn't in much trouble.

Dream 28

[1] There is this girl and she acts like she likes me, but she really has a serious boyfriend.  Me and her are hanging out and getting physically close.  She is pretty to me and I think she represented the slutbag I'd talked to at the bag.  Her boyfriend comes back into the scene and she turns on me.   They begin to torture me.  They do this by doing stuff to my limps so that I feel even more pain than I ever have before.  They were both planning this the whole time.

[2] Something to do with Hy-Vee.  Me and one of my favorite co-workers J.S. are in McDonald's drive through, looking for some food.  My douche-bag boss N.B. finds us.

Dream 27

Me and my dears friends A.S., C.B., and M.C. were all at my house.  We had bunches of cocaine.  Me and A.S. each did a little line.  C.B. didn't do any.  Me and M.C. were going out for breakfast, but we kept getting sidetracked and never made it.  Me and A.S. just started doing the coke out of a huge pile, only caring to crush it down with a credit card and shove the stray into it.  We were fucked up.  We did it on the black plate I had, and the cocaine was red.

Dream 26

I dreamt but I don't recollect them.  I was in the drinkin' mode in reality.

Dream 25

[1] Ho-ray For Me Fagget was at my house with three of his friends.  They all were calling me out because I bitched out over something.

[2] D.H. was looking into my window.

Dream 24

Hazzy memories of this dream until I am in the desert.  I can remember the desert, but I can't describe it, but I suspect it was heaven or hell.

Dream 23

Me and my cousin L.H. were down in St. Joseph for some reason or another.  We get out of the Buddha-ride, but I don't remember anything until we went back to the Buddha-ride.  I hit a really nice car next to him with his door, but luckily he didn't notice.  We drive around t. Joseph for awhile.

Later, I realized I was asleep and I wanted to sleep forever.  My dream intertwined with my reality.  When I thought I was getting up, J.N. was in my bed in the back room.  She was looking for a sweater.

Dream 22

(note: dreams haven't been remembered well lately).

I just remember taking plastic packaging off something of my childhood friend K.B.'s and putting it back on, as the case was already opened before.  I just tore it down the middle.

Dream 21

I was at the White Stripes concert at Starlight Theatre, sitting next to my old friend D.H., my cousin C.N. and his friend W.F. and J.W.  I remember C.N. telling me that J.W. saw a show where Meg White walked off the stage in San Francisco.

We all smoked out of Morlock, and then D.H. ended up back around us, a few rows back.  I rolled a joint, and me, J.W. and W.F. smoked it.  I looked back at D.H. and went home for a bit before coming back.  The joint was still only half smoked and I continued to partake.

Dream 20

This dream had a lot to do with work.  I was in trouble for some reason.  I can not remember why.

Later, it was a holiday and I ended up having sex with the check K.C. at work.  In reality, I am in no way, shape or form attracted to this lady.

Dream 19

Me, G.P., J.K., and G.B. are all traveling together inside a car.  We are all smoking meth together, but we smoke it out of what is distinctly a hash pipe.  We drive by my uncle D.C.'s place and my mother's entire family is there having a family reunion.  I duck and I remember D.C. seeing me.  I decided to get out and say hi to everything.  I tell everyone hi,and then I leave.  J.C. asks me if I got those badass nugs he'd been hearing I had.  I just laugh and give J.C. a nug, then shake D.C.'s hand and I start down the road again, alone.

I am now trying to find my cousin L.H.  I don't remember if I found him, but I get hold of G.P. again and I am now at the house on Village O Drive and I am hoping he has a rail of meth for me.  I am having trouble getting ready.  I start talking to my sister J.N. and tell her sorry for being a bad brother.  She says she doesn't know what I am talking about.

Pink Floyd's bassist Roger Waters was also in my dream,.  I don't remember anything other than he was younger.

Dream 18

[1] Me and my old friend M.D. are in Movie Magic talking about the new qotsa dvd.  He said there are cd's out now for the kc show on May 23, 2005.

[2] I go over to D.H.'s after I skipped a hy-vee party of some sort, and a Nielson party too.  I just remember being outside his house and not much else.